And y'know, if anyone is getting bored (or uncomfortable) with hearing me process all of this in public, you're totally excused from reading any more entries until I'm done. Sharing stories is an important thing to do when you're grieving, but I don't want anyone who isn't touched by it themselves to feel obligated to listen.
And if I didn't know it before, dang, do I have a lot of people who care! Thank you. I love you all.