||[Nov. 23rd, 2005|11:37 pm]
I want to say that I really appreciate all the support and kind words that people have offered. It really means a lot to me. I've tried to reply to everyone, but LJ comment notification has been sporadic, so my apologies if I missed anyone. Thank you again.|
And y'know, if anyone is getting bored (or uncomfortable) with hearing me process all of this in public, you're totally excused from reading any more entries until I'm done. Sharing stories is an important thing to do when you're grieving, but I don't want anyone who isn't touched by it themselves to feel obligated to listen.
And if I didn't know it before, dang, do I have a lot of people who care! Thank you. I love you all.
Beemer, I just don't know what to say. I always want to reply to your posts, but I worry it may sound inappropriate. In my family of grude-holders, my maternal grandmother was always the one who prepared the body for burial. (They were poor hill people. I'm sure there's rules about it now.) She would always forgive a grudge on occasion of illness or death. It was her role. She's dead now, and now that side of the family doesn't speak to each other anymore.
I think it's great your family can come together for this, and that you have so much to share. It's certainly changed my perspective as I prepare to face my father's family this thanksgiving.
Thanks, Sarah. Don't worry about sounding inappropriate; what you've said is just fine.
2005-11-24 05:36 am (UTC)
Expression is good for the heart
This is your journal, and I think it is great that you share your stories with us all. As we too will face the passing of our own loved ones in the future. Express yourself, that is what journals are about, to allow you a place for expressing, processing, validating, and discovering feelings, and those hidden sides of us that we lost in translation during our growing up process. Work through your thoughts and feelings now so that you can start to move on , and continue forward in lifes course. Don't regress or hold feelings hostage. Write , write, and write some more. Write onward my friend.
2005-11-26 08:16 am (UTC)
Re: Expression is good for the heart
Thanks, Todd. No worries about me self-censoring -- I just wanted to make sure people didn't feel guilty if they get done reading about it before I get done writing. =)
It bemuses me that you worry that anyone might feel obligated to read your journal. I assure you, if we weren't interested, we wouldn't read it.
Well, I'm not worried about folks not reading it, but that they'll not read it and feel guilty about it. 'Cuz, y'know, I do that from time to time.
Hooray for social software! I am glad you are processing online because I feel like I can contribute by offering silent support from afar (which is slightly difficult when you don't know what is going on). Lord knows I've abuse it emotionally to a certain extent.
Damn I lost track of my thought. Much more love from all of us back anyway...
Wootz! Well, then I guess it's working. Thanks!